I used to like roses,
and a stiff drink-
maybe?
I can’t recall now,
it makes the scar itch.
They said I argued too much,
“quarrelsome and prone to hysterics”-
footnotes to an epithet (or is it epitaph?)
Sometimes my skull aches,
and sometimes I forgetthereisaspacebetween
my
self,
like a pocket of air
beneath the skin.
(helpless blood pooling
into a nice white space)
I don’t know why
I’d bang and scream,
why I’d claw at my arms
and let things vex me so much,
claw at their eyes
and let them vex me so much.
Troublesome;
but they had a cure,
a treatment for tempests
drinking from tea cups-
I told them
I told them
I don’t like the blankness
filling up my mind—
did you know
I used to like roses
and a stiff drink?
© Nancy Botta, 2019
“don’t like the blankness filling up my mind…” Try accepting it and see what happens.
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Love this so much, and it’s so well written. I love how you play with the words and spaces! I’m not sure if you know who Emilie Autumn is, but this sounds like it could be straight from another patient in her book “The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls.”
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“Pocket of air beneath the skin”.
This is beautiful!!
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Yeah, that line grabbed me too. Beautiful!
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Stunning poetry. I feel the anguish…
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Very clever! Very well written. Cool!
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Oh, those last haunting lines. Wonderfully done– Mike
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The more that I read this poem, the more that my mind finds different meanings hiding in the words. Well done as your writing woke up my mind.
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Wow, powerful stuff, loved it.
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Just wow!
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These lines of someone at the bottom, numbed by meds and/or depression. Heartbreaking but well-written, Nancy.
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Your way with words is absolutely gritty and stunning at once. Continue on, poet. You are what poetry should be.
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This is stunning. What excellent exacting observations of details both physical and emotional. 👏 Brava!
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Your stuff is good. I’m following you now. Thanks for following me. If you ever want any feedback on a poem, just let me know.
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This is beautiful. I like it very much. Are you on social media? Thanks Taka
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I have Instagram and Twitter, but they’re mostly extensions of this blog
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What’s your name on Instagram and Twitter
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Twitter: @Nancy_Botta Instagram: @rustedhoney
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Wow, I’m new to all this, looks like, I have a lot to learn..
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Unbelievably powerful and hauntingly beautiful.
“…and sometimes I forgetthereisaspacebetween
my
self,
like a pocket of air
beneath the skin.”
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Thanks for taking time away from your writing to visit my blog!
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